We warmly welcome Dick Khan, author of DMT & My Occult Mind, as our featured author for November. Dick Khan has conducted extensive research into the mind-manifesting mysteries found in the mystical DMT experience. Through his investigation, Dick Khan attempts to understand what lies beyond the veil and considers the possibility that this powerful substance may open the door to a parallel occult kingdom. His books offer an account of his experimental exploration, discovery and learnings.
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The world is comprehensively mapped and measured, leaving little opportunity for the spirited explorer to chart new frontiers – unless of course, one is able to plumb the watery depths as an oceanographic submariner, or leave the planet as an astronaut in pursuance of sublunar space exploration. Alas! Such adventurous paths are few and far between. Nature, however, is full of secrets and surprises. One particularly eye-opening surprise is that nature has hidden within herself the means by which we can investigate her hidden side. The chemical substance Dimethyltryptaminei (DMT) is a particularly magical molecule in that regard, for its molecular structure is similar to the neurotransmitter serotonin, and is therefore able to be consumed by the brain as a particularly remarkable drug, better known as the Spirit Molecule. Ubiquitous throughout the plant and animal kingdom, this potent psychedelic substance can be exacted from the roots of certain trees in a form that enables the user to introduce the molecules into the brain in a variety of ways – including inhalation, when the waxy extract is transformed into a vaporous state. With a sufficient dose, the experience manifests rapidly and powerfully upon one’s perception as an ontologically shocking imposition of unimaginable otherworldliness. It is without doubt, a life-changing experience. But why? How? What’s at play?
Hidden Nature is Occult Nature
The world’s myths, legends, folklores and religions speak of mysterious otherworldly beings. In the modern age, we have the UFO enigma and the so-called alien abduction phenomenon. Science theorises about parallel worlds and parallel universes; certain sub-genres of fiction and science fiction exercise such otherworldly suppositions for our entertainment and pleasure. But in actual fact, is anything otherworldly really concealed from our sight? Are presently unrecognised lifeforms or strange conscious agencies invisibly occupying hidden kingdoms – other realms of nature that have hitherto eluded modern man? According to esoteric lore and occult doctrine, that is most certainly the case. Occult remains a somewhat taboo word. In its lite guise, occult merely means hidden, secret, concealed, obscured, difficult to see, shut off from view. But of course, its wider meaning takes us into mystical, magical and metaphysical realms and philosophies, with concepts that are not only at odds with physicalism-cum-materialism and traditional scientific inquiry, but are also regarded as implausible, occasionally nefarious and potentially dangerous. If only there was a reliable method by which an inquiring mind could investigate those hidden realities, in order to determine the truth of the matter to one’s own satisfaction.
Heeding DMT’s Call
I was operating on something quite like that mindset when I first experimented with DMT. However, months before the pipe first reached my lips, my introduction to DMT came about quite by chance. Staying up late one Saturday evening, under the influence of a then legally purchasable research chemical, I chanced upon the eye-opening documentary, DMT: The Spirit Moleculeii, showcasing Dr Rick Strassman’s game-changing government-sanctioned research into the effects of the drug on his cohort of research volunteers. My attention was arrested from the beginning and remained that way until the very end. But midway through, when the research volunteers began describing their incredible experiences under the influence of DMT, I became thrilled with goosebumps. I simply knew that I absolutely must experience the Spirit Molecule. The promise of direct experience with a spiritual realm strongly beckoned. It was almost as though the DMT experience I had yet to experience was calling to me, enticingly. And I was all ears!
As a consequence of that calling, I spent several months doing my homework by reading numerous online reports from those who had ventured before me. I then obtained the necessary raw material to procure the powerful substance and diligently followed the extraction procedure, whilst being mindful possession of said substance was not in accordance with the law of the land. After successfully retesting my psychedelic navigation skills with a good dose of fresh psilocybin magic truffles delivered from the Netherlands – on the basis many years had elapsed since I had experienced strong psychedelics – I was good to go. And yet, despite all that careful preparation, and despite holding preconceived opinions about occult realities, the sheer power and ineffable magical beauty of the DMT experience was more than sufficient to throw all that out of the window, as I succumbed to the inevitable ontological shock. The thrust of most DMT reports is that the user exits his or her physical body and enters another world, another realm, another universe – in what is commonly referred to as a breakthrough experience. And indeed, my breakthrough experiences really did make it appear that I was miraculously accessing another reality, occupied by strange humanlike entities, showing off impossible objects, all within a very highly active environment that somehow appeared far more real than ordinary everyday terrestrial reality. It was like nothing that I could have imagined. Most unexpectedly, and far more often than not, my sense of self and rational cognisance was completely maintained. But the level of astonishment at what I witnessed went completely off the scale.
The more and more I experimented with DMT, the more and more I wanted to understand the causal nature of the experience after inhaling the potent vapour. This translated into a very determined mindset, which ultimately resulted in me making the decision to embark upon my very own research programme – not only documenting and analysing my experiences, but consciously adopting a very keenly perceptive and investigatory frame of mind, each and every time I decided to introduce the powerful mind manifesting molecules into my brain. Despite having to overcome terrifically heightened levels of anxiety, concomitant with commitment to this bizarre drug, I pursued several hundred experiments over a three-year period in both an indoor and outdoor setting. I began with a completely open mind – absolutely unclear as to how, after inhaling the potent vapour, I would suddenly find myself within an overwhelmingly bizarre otherworldly environment. The ensuing research was absolutely remarkable because, not only did the experiences change slowly but significantly over time, but gradually, the truth of the matter – to my mind at least – slowly began to reveal itself. I was being engaged on a one-to-one basis with powerful non-physical lifeformsiii presently outside the ken and the cataloguing of life as we know it.
Bizarre in The Extreme
But from the outset, that simply was not evident. Instead, it genuinely did appear that after inhaling a sufficient volume of the potent vapour, I would suddenly somehow find myself in an unfamiliar otherworldly setting; oftentimes occupied with humanlike entities who all seemed genuinely interested in me, and were able to provide an experience that was astonishingly playful and entertaining in the extreme. I was induced into outbursts of gleeful childlike laughter; became an experiencer of extreme ecstasy; was astonished by circus acts presenting impossible performances; observed bizarre reality bending optical effects; and experienced convincing illusions of mobility. And all the while, the one thing that was slowly but surely becoming increasingly evident, was that these experiences were being powerfully imposed upon my perception by powerful non-physical entities exhibiting remarkable capacities. Aside from completely engulfing me in an immersive world of very highly defined morphing visual splendour – wherein seemingly autonomous anthropomorphic characters fussed over my presence – the non-physical entities creating those wonderfully visual immersive experiences began to impose themselves upon me invasively, and even quasi-physically, as well as regularly exhibiting capacity to methodically elicit a sequence of fast-paced emotions from me, in a manner suggesting my psyche was being expertly puppeteered by something that understand the terrain and the mechanics of human consciousness.
My first invasive encounter came after a series of visually impressive immersive experiences, wherein smiling humanlike entities eyeballed me whilst moving around me in a most peculiar manner. Those experiences were extremely entertaining. But after three consecutive such encounters, I foolishly considered that perhaps DMT had little else to offer. My next experience was markedly different. From the outset, the very same playful humanlike entities were present and fussing over me, but there was something else. The energy from the non-physical entity imposing that mesmerising hallucinatory scenery was far more intense, and as the palpable and audible frequency of its constitutional power rose ever higher and higher, it reached an almost unbearable pitch, in conjunction with which one of the humanlike entities suddenly dived into the midst of my chest. The experience immediately changed. It was all too evident a portion of the non-physical entity was now invested throughout my larynx, where it was palpably active in a quasi-physical capacity. The evident yet unexpected intrusion caused me to cry out loud in surprise and disbelief, whereupon my voice sounded so bizarrely modulated that I felt compelled to vocalise again and again, simply in order to marvel at the unusual acoustic qualities characterising my voice. The conclusion of that experience resulted in an outburst of tears resulting from the shock of the incursion. Nevertheless, I was willing to place my trust in those beings imposing the bizarre experiences, which became progressively strange and occasionally, exceedingly challenging.
The quasi-physical invasive element became a regular feature of the experiences. I endured entities rummaging around inside my abdomen; countenanced strange manipulations within my brain; experienced activity focussed around the posterior of my left eyeball; succumbed to a bizarre and prolonged dental examination; enjoyed a cerebral massage; endured deep tissue operations in my arms and my back; and quite unbelievably, suffered the progressive obstruction of my trachea, as the quasi-physical substance slowly stymied my capacity to breathe until, on the verge of submission to frenzied panic, the initiating entity suddenly vanished in the blink of an eye. On one occasion in the garden, a powerful entity thoroughly roughhoused me before departing in a very rapid manner, which evidently punched a temporary circular hole in the continuous cloud cover. I watched in awe as the hole slowly closed whilst still coming to terms with the actions of my tormentor. Despite such challenging experiences, I had to force myself to go further, by ignoring the very vocal appeals emanating from my ego, pleading with me to refrain from inhaling the potent vapour. The bizarre machinations of the powerful non-physical entities sometimes proved difficult to write about. For example, having my mouth and nostrils temporarily closed with an insuperable quasi-physical seal, effectively trapping a diminishing breath within my lungs, until the experience reached a tremendous crescendo in tandem with my requirement to draw in much needed breath. Once, a particularly powerful non-physical entity plunged into my bedroom, in a manner that made the wooden floorboards audibly creak and groan. The entity then rapidly ramped up its tremendous otherworldly strength, imposing itself against the aged lathe and plaster bedroom walls, causing those walls to audibly flex under the phenomenal force. Then, having secured its bizarre otherworldly purchase upon the bedroom, the entity proceeded to shake the room, duly transmitting audible and perceptible vibrations to the house, rendering me both startled and terrified.
Powerfully Projecting Mind-Stuff
The more I progressed, the more my suppositions became confirmed – inhalation of DMT in the vaporous state rapidly, readily and reliably promoted profound engagement with a species of non-physical entity on a one-to-one basis. How that could possibly occur was one of the very many questions at the forefront of my mind. Psychedelic, from ‘psyche’ meaning ‘mind’ and ‘delos’ meaning ‘manifesting’, literally translates as ‘mind manifesting’. It’s a completely apt term, because that is essentially what occurs when one’s brain greedily gobbles up the DMT molecules introduced into the body. The initial effect is as remarkable as it is rapid. Users of psychedelics will understand and appreciate the importance of the terms ‘set and setting’, with the former referring to one’s state of mind and the latter referring to the environment where one actually pursues the psychedelic experience. Upon inhaling the potent vapour, DMT’s capacity to very powerfully and very rapidly manifest one’s mind-stuff from a baseline state is absolutely incredible, and is especially appreciable in an outdoor setting in good daylight or twilight conditions. Within an indoor setting, that strange projection may appear as an exceptionally crystal-clear medium filling the volume of the room; or with a greater dose, as a uniformly turbulent mass of seething energy giving the room a distinctive underwater appearance.
By mind-stuff, I mean that peculiar intangible medium that evidently emerges rapidly and expansively from one’s being in response to the effect of DMT upon the pineal region of the brain. This is the exceptionally crystal-clear medium that gives a remarkable and characteristic tryptamine sharpness and straight-edged clarity to one’s surroundings. This is what caused the late legendary psychonaut Terence McKenna to observe, upon taking a first toke of DMT: “…there is a sense as though all the air in the room has been sucked out.”iv Moving one’s hand through this uncommon medium typically results in the user observing a long line of distinct tracer trails behind the direction of movement, suggesting qualities markedly different to ordinary air. Mind-stuff is suggested nomenclature. We could label this otherwise unfamiliar output as expanded consciousness, psycho-spiritual substance or the astral fluid of esotericism – an essential yet intangible aspect of our being; one that exhibits expansiveness and fluidity in response to inhalation of DMT vapour, while also displaying properties in close accord with elasticity, as the uncommon medium visibly and perceptibly, yet slowly, returns to its baseline state. Observing that projection bountifully filling the local sky as one lays supine having inhaled a sufficient dose of DMT is an absolutely remarkable sight, and one that can only serve to convince the observer that their composition comprises far more than blood, flesh, skin and bone alone. It’s an out-there supposition, but perhaps that extraordinary output is a microcosmic example of the mysterious and elusive macrocosmic dark matter?
Signalling Hidden Lifeforms
Even without considering non-physical lifeforms and interaction with said beings, this initial effect of DMT upon the individual is phenomenally interesting. But the really important consideration here is that this strange and powerful outpouring significantly alters one’s setting, as an expansive mass of one’s own mind-stuff rapidly projects in a bubblelike manner from one’s being. Even more significant, however, is that bizarre and bountiful output essentially serves as signal that is attractive to certain species of non-physical lifeforms. Typically, one such entity will rapidly emerge within the DMT users significantly altered setting and will mesmerically overpower the DMT user; whereupon it can then impose untold visual, invasive or psychically manipulative feats and wonders. Possibly that mesmeric overpowering of one’s will by the powerful non-physical entity is what was originally and anecdotally referenced as the DMT Flash, rather than the DMT experience proceeding from that initial overpowering occurrence? Given that mesmeric overpowering commences within mere seconds, or the very instant one exhales the final vaporous inhalation, makes observation of those esoteric mechanics exceptionally challenging without committing oneself to repeated experiences. The observation that those powerful non-physical entities are evidently composed of the very same mind-stuff that projects from the DMT researcher is, I suggest, ontologically fascinating.
Investigating the Immeasurable
Taking my research into an outdoor setting – a small suburban garden – really helped my observations and enabled me to develop the aforementioned esoteric hypothesis. But that’s not the whole story, because a frequent occurrence at the conclusion of some outdoor experiments was the presence of what ufologists would term black orb UFO’s, earth lights, and other unidentified aerial phenomena, slowly transiting the local sky. Making such an argument really should excite those with an avid interest in that field, because such sightings not only lend themselves to the esoteric hypotheses arguing for the actuality of such agency, but actually point to a possible method for signalling and engaging with said phenomenon. For me, however, the most rewarding aspect of my outdoor research by far, was observing a non-physical entity manifest above me in otherwise consensus reality. Rather than powerfully and mesmerically impose itself upon me in the manner I have outlined, an entity would sometimes simply emerge above me, inside the field of my expansively manifested mind-stuff, and thereby reveal itself – evident as a dense and yet completely transparent mass, configured something like an improbably oversized multifaceted gemstone, displaying beautiful symmetrical geometry and perceptibly exuding tremendous power. Those sightings in particular were truly life-changing, principally because they gave subjectively irrefutable evidence of the existence of powerful non-physical lifeforms, presently unrecognised by science.
These arcane arguments – if they have any basis in truth or even attract consensus agreement among adherents – must surely pose something of a challenge for science; because whilst such observations are singularly subjective, can science really ignore the notion that nature has a parrel occult kingdom; one that is evidently occupied and beckoning to be explored through utilisation of nature’s very own mind manifesting technology? It genuinely does appear that nature has hidden within herself the means by which we can explore her hidden side. One could argue that for science to remain true to its roots, it will eventually have to venture into these unchartered territories, in order to pursue the acquisition of a knowledge that presently appears immeasurable. That is also to propose, the implications of the DMT experience are of such extraordinary magnitude that its potential to provoke significant sociocultural change is enormous. Could the DMT experience invoke an ontological revolution – one that wrestles against spirit-deadening materialist values, promotes revivification of gnostic and esoteric inquiry, induces radical sea change in human consciousness; and ultimately peddles a new mythic dimension into the unfolding human story? I believe so. Isn’t that revolution already quietly underway?
Denizens of Strange Nature
Inhaling phenomenally potent mind manifesting vapour is not the only route for administering the Spirit Molecule. Ayahuascav – a traditional entheogenic brew imbibed ceremonially by indigenous peoples of the Amazon basin – contains orally active DMT. The potent concoction generally provides a significantly longer, and to some degree, less intense experience. However, the principles remain the same: one’s mind-stuff becomes expansively aroused from a baseline state, thereby attracting the attention of powerful non-physical lifeforms from occult nature, which duly exhibit remarkable capacities to profoundly interact with the user. That DMT readily and reliably promotes such a life-changing interaction with something not normally accessible to our eyes – lifeforms that seem quite alien relative to our human condition but are arguably denizens of strange nature with mysterious relation to our earthy existence – begs question after question after question. For example: what can we learn from interacting with non-physical entities? And why is such research important?
Wilfully Subduing Ego
Based on my research, I found the battle of wilfully subduing my ego in order to overcome anxieties borne of committing myself to inhaling the potent vapour, rapidly developed my emotional intelligence – enabling me to become far more mindful of my interactions with people that I know and with strangers; as well as fostering a greater awareness of positive and adverse influences upon my psyche. That’s not to say my encounters with non-physical entities were not edifying, but the real change came from within, by virtue of forcibly overriding my ego simply in order to further my research. By contrast, some of my ayahuasca experiences with non-physical entities have allowed me to clearly analyse, assess and then comfortably incorporate into conscious acceptance darker historical episodes from my life; being able to observe myself from a non-judgemental third person perspective, within improbably hypervivid scenery has proved to be a wonderful strategy for dealing with historically troublesome memories. In one ayahuasca ceremony, I was subtly and humorously invited to face my own soul, which ultimately proved to be a far more jarring encounter, and from which the strong yet unspoken suggestion to break from unhealthy habits was made stark. Based on my experiences with Ayahuasca, I am forced to conclude this exceptional human experience promotes genuine opportunity for the individual to make positive improvements in self-awareness and self-development. That these experiences are helpful and healthful by virtue of interaction with powerful non-physical lifeforms really should foster much wider scientific and philosophical interest in the benefits derived from partaking in these traditional ceremonies.
DMT: Data Collection and Occult Mechanics
Not everyone subscribes to the view that these experiences are based on interaction with non-physical lifeforms. Very generally speaking, adherents of the DMT experience are divided between those who ascribe the experience solely to the machinations of their own mind, and those who, like me, attest to powerful otherworldly entities being central to the experience. In my self-published research, I document the experiences that gradually led me toward that conclusion, as well as the ongoing experiences that served to further reinforce my certainty and gave me much wider appreciation of their incredible power and remarkable diverse capacities. My research arguably contributes to the early stages of data collection into this profound mystery, as well as proposing a hypothesis into the occult mechanics behind these truly bizarre otherworldly interactions. I must consider that my choice to approach this profound mystery open-eyed and in daylight conditions, or within an illuminated setting, greatly assisted my investigations; as opposed to experimenting closed-eyed, in darkness or dimly lit conditions. Nevertheless, despite all the phenomenal and insightful experiences witnessed, the fact that a sufficient dose of DMT promotes the emergence of a powerful non-physical entity into one’s setting, and effectively gives it licence to impose a very powerful and life-changing interaction upon the brave user, still seems like science fiction or fantasy. But in actual fact, what a truly wonderful and highly mysterious aspect of nature this is – the spirited risk-taking adventurer, able to utilise a potent mind manifesting substance extracted from nature, in order to assist in the exploration of that which is otherwise hidden from sight, within and without. How wonderful that these life-changing experiences strongly inspire individual creativity and promote greater self-awareness and drive for self-development. Can we suppose that nature had forethought to hardwire into her design a failsafe against humanity losing capacity for direct spiritual experience?
By way of introduction to my initial publication, I considered it apt to provide brief but relevant background information about myself, pertaining to: altered states of consciousness in my earlier years, which included classic out-of-body experiences; a bizarre encounter with a radiant sun-like orb; and persistent high-pitched tinnitus – which remains with me to this day. I go on to explain how I became introduced into esoteric and occult literature, with particular regard to the theosophical works of H. P. Blavatsky – which had huge influence upon my early adult ontological outlook. My books reference Wikipedia articles in order to provide broad introduction to individuals such as Dr Rick Strassman, Terence McKenna, and Jacques Vallée; as well as subject matter such as: Pseudoscience, New Age, Cymatics, Corpora Arenacea, Ascended Master, Will (philosophy). More obscure esoteric literature is referenced where quotes were found to complement or give substance to my analysis. Secondary intentions behind publishing DMT & My Occult Mind was to contribute to the early stages of data collection arising from these deeply mystical and mysterious experiences, but also to advance the discussion by suggesting a scientifically incisive understanding of the occult-mechanics behind these life-changing encounters with powerful non-physical lifeforms.