I don't know, whether or not, to show empathy or to ask if you wouldn't mind posting me some of that stash of yours.
Life is a little more important than lying in a darkened room for whatever reason. Therefore, in answer to your request, I shall direct you to my initial reply to GH on this subject which is contained in this thread. Just scroll up and look for my handle.
Forgive me if I may sound presumptuous, but I have the feeling that you may not even have read this post, hence your bewilderment.
If you care to read this text, ignoring any religious thoughts which may surface through prior education, and just concentrate on the story, there is sufficient content for further discussion. Other arcane texts have been discovered which also shed light on this issue, but probably best to deal with this one first.