I deserved her disdainful opinion of me. It was only after early adulthood (approximately my late teen years) that we compromised and accepted each other, generally speaking. Of course, now, that leaves me sad. I am always questioning my behaviors during that time in my life.
Even, so, I have dutifuly searched myself and know that I have not always been either strongly spiritual, nor debased enough to really hurt others. I was very confused by the two opposing stategies in my life: love and hate.
Today, I live mostly quiet and self reflective. I also mind my manners and monitor my thoughts and feelings. That is the best I can do.
Here on this Forum I have shared a lot of things, but the scales must fall away of their own accord.
If this is hard to hear, then I apologize for whatever is said without consideration of others here. No. I don't like my own past. Today I get to try again, etc.
Thankyou for bringing up your ideas.
The virtue of a highly evolved being embraces all people and things and dispels the darkness which isolates them.
Hua Hu Ching-primary lesson.