Jim, I read a book by two doctors years ago, The Truth about Addiction and Recovery, which basically posited that a natural maturing process is incured through one's life experience. The reason that I suffered was because a certain sponsorship group had been (maybe still doing) preferring their collective attitudes rather than comfort and support the "newcomer", of which I was not. My third try was hopeless from the start because there was no support from that group. I aligned with a sponsor who was younger than I and eventually his schizophrenic personality and his mother failed to support my recovery in any 12 step way. It was a dereliction that made me leave the insanity I was encountering. I was unable to recover even when I wrote my steps. My previous sponsor from the second try (actually I had several sponsors over 15 years in the program) could not confirm any specific behaviors that I thought I was being honest about. My bad.
Today, as "maturing out" I allow a little drink and I cannot return to the exasperation of doing it again. The program goes on without me.
Please don't despair for me or others who find their way there.
You should dissolve all discrimination of individuality and absorb all things into a harmonious oneness.
The virtue of a highly evolved being embraces all people and things and dispels the darkness which isolates them.
Hua Hu Ching-primary lesson.
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