"in relation to my own direct experience."
Are you saying you forced your apotheosis or theosis?
I have and am always interested in anecdotal renderings. Please share your experience if that is what you meant.
"(2) Jesus said, "Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will
become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over
This is a hard to dither out saying.
Did you become troubled? Why?
Were you astonished? At what?
What does ruling over the all mean to you?