> "I would need more time so I will come back on
> Please do! Maybe this, if I knew you well the day
> before you did your 23-day experience, how would
> you seem different, and how would you say
> you were different the day after this journey? : )
“Chopping the wood and fetching the water”
So no change detectible there and yet…
Our very close friend Ben was suffering from lung cancer, one lung removed already; almost the end of the line. Chemotherapy the only option left. I advised against it and he felt the same. Through a college we became acquainted with the head of the Santo Daime church in Holland. She was stable with a head tumor for over 6 years and claimed that it was the Daime (ayahuasca) that had kept her alive (prognosis was that she should have died after the first year)
So he decided to go for the daime instead of chemotherapy. And made the proper arrangements. They demanded over there that someone (friend, family) would accompany him. Normally my wife would have accompanied him, but at the crucial moment when a friend in a booking-office had found us a flight (very hard to find on such a short notice) she was not reachable and we had to decide there and then that I would accompany him,
This was on Thursday, we flew on Saturday.
Never heard of the word “ayahuasca”; thought I was bringing my friend to some shaman or Indian wizard and stay in some hotel or lodge or whatever.
The shaman turned out to be a psychiatrist from Boston of Portuguese decent and a “mestre” of the Santo Daime church. It was called “a workshop” and there were 9 people participating: 7 Americans 2 Dutch (we) and an occasional Brazilian. As soon as I had arrived there (nature area up in the mountains) it was clear to me that I had to participate too if I wanted to stay in touch and help my friend.
And so I did.
That’s how I came in there (Ceu da Montanha near Maua de Visconde near Resende).
So I was a stranger there and yet felt at home; me participating was only natural.
I described this “prologue” more or less in detail to point out that I was not looking for any “trip”, “enlightenment” or whatever, just helping out a friend.
Also to point out that it is quite impossible to answer your question in a couple of sentences.
But I can pick out one change:
Before all this, still at home, I was reluctant to follow an intuition I had to become a therapist beside the profession I had already. I was struggling with that.
After the sessions and the flight back home, setting foot again on Dutch soil, right at that moment it “hit me” that now the time had come to go for that “therapist education”.
And so I did.
Is becoming who you are a change?
I know this doesn’t answer your question, but I do hope It gives you “a feel” for the kind of impact it can have.