I understand :-(
Take a deep breath and carry on as usual :-)
About the back.
Please check your doctor.
A decade ago I was on a one way trip to a wheelchair because I failed to understand the severity of my back problem. In the end I was not able to drive my car over 30 minutes. I had to crawl out and lay flat on the tarmac to lose the pain in my back. You should have seen the other drivers, no one stopped btw. During one of those tarmac sessions it finally dawned upon me I HAD to do something about it.
In the end, I needed a severe and dangerous operation on my lower back.
But as soon as that was done, the excruciating pain was gone and I have never understood why the he** I never attended a doctor sooner, would have saved me from maybe two years of pain.
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