This is what I have lived.
It started with the fracturing of language, internal and silent, but as my son grew, my family began to die.
Grandfather, his sister, the other aunt in law by the same nane, it went on for ~15 years. If one of our horses died, it skipped. If a large percentage of the cats in the kinnel died, it skipped, then people started dying again .. At 17 humans it seemed to branch off out family.
It is no delusion, all those people died. When Mom had a mild heart attack I made her lock up her house and move in with my son & me.
No delusions. Everything I type of on this topic is hard experience which has actually caused me to lose faith in the possibility of an equitable life on this planet.
My first neighbors were dog pimps, chuhawawa pimps after german shepherd pimps. Switched to cats when my boy was born, kept the kennel until he was in about 4th grade.
Now, for me, zero animals!!
Russia without love, I think.
If you want more, I still remember it. Don't know for how long.
Mind is the rider.