Oh I know you can Tom. I can tell you about what is going on in my brain/ mind as well. I was talking about the objective understanding of what is going on in our brains/minds by professional scientist with their machines.
“It is a job to reconfigure my brain. Everyday is like a repeating theme of experience, sifting through thoughts and rejecting some thoughts over more useful ideas and concerns. Emotion plays a big part in this process. ”
I hear you Tom. You are special, you work with your Doctor’s, take your meds, work on meditation , attention skills, study philosophies. And work! Many people in your position would have given up, you did not.