I don't take her opinions seriously, but she is a person who has her own battles and tackles them bravely.
You are doing your own best.
> Ray, I, like any normal human being, am doing the
> best that I can with what resources I have
> available to me. It puzzles me that Susan thinks
> that I am pompous and arrogant. I am working in my
> mind to understand the realities around and within
> me. Is arrogance to seek answers to my own
> questions? Is it pompous to allow other people
> into my mind and life?
> It amazes me that I am declared to be those things
> that Susan so generously provides in her
> responses. It can only be her individuated
> opinion. In fact, lots of different people puzzle
> me. I remember in 2nd grade that a boy was ranting
> to me about something I can neither remember nor
> care about. But the emotional hurt was very REAL
> to me. I felt THREATENED in my body. So I ran away
> as any child might do from a dangerous display of
> violence from another.
> Today, I allow people to be themself, but I fail
> to influence people because I follow my heart and
> rationalize the aspects of Reality that interest
> me. So, how can I be condoned as some kind of
> rebel with no wits nor intelligence to manage my
> thought-life and heartfelt energies to describe
> the ponderings that I employ everyday?
> Surely I am bewildered that, again, someone RANTS
> against my very BEST logical thinking. I just
> don't understand these comments thrown my way, as
> though I somehow trespassed upon someone's mind.
> Did I? I don't really know FOR SURE. I am left
> with a bad taste in my mouth. I tried to
> comprehend the contrary opinion, yet I do NOT
> KNOW. It is the very same DON'T KNOW that is
> presented as an explanation for the contradiction
> of another's MIND.
> Truly puzzles me!!!!
> Here are some lyrics to consider:
> The first time I went to Chicago I was previous to
> my sixteenth birthday (1970) with my parents. I
> remember the in-town interstate system.
> The second time I went to Chicago in 1979 I
> experienced a very negative response to my
> presence. I was alone and very sensitive to the
> overall "Cosmic messages" to vacate that city with
> all haste. I was not wanted nor needed there. So I
> left to save my very life. It was a dangerous
> place for me.