Look, I know that I have a mental condition. If you have never watched "A Beautiful Mind", about a genius scientist, then you would know that being so burdened with a "wild" mind is absolutely tragic. So much possibility is scrambled like eggs and can't be ADJUSTED, only inhibited by medication. I spent too many times being "blown away" by unruly visions and voices. I NEVER LIKED being so out of control. It is a good thing that I grew up in a stable environment because my CONSCIOUS mind had been given some tools to manage at least my impulses. A Christian background in childhood allowed me a worldview that surpasses any disheveled mindstate that DID upset my daily life.
I can be enthusiastic, sometimes TOO ENTHUSIASTIC, like in the movie. It is the nature of this brain processing disfunction. It is a boat on the ocean of consciousness that only has oars to move along. I suspect that NORMAL folks have a proper SPEEDBOAT type of mind; more practical and useful than a broken brain. I realize that I was always monitored by family and doctors of mental conditions. My youth as a teenager was tragic and it took me into my 30's before I could be responsible. That was the very last thing that my dad said about me before he passed on.
So, I am that way. Medication and responsibility to the truth about life has helped me to grow up. At 64 I still am like a child, as my thirty-something manager tells me often. The assistant-manager has difficulty understanding my impulses, and frankly, I don't understand them either. I try to evaluate my mind, but who can evaluate an animal? I believe that my brain is still in the mammalian region more than in the cortex "human" brain. It concerns me a lot, since I have to live with this messy brain.
I get enthusiastic about anything that is unusual, like quantum physics. In fact, it took me a long while to actually ACCEPT the premises of "spooky" action in the field of modern physics. I just have laid my cards on the table and I know some of you folks may be disheartened with my viewpoints. I know that this actually makes others shy of me. That is a price I pay to interact with others.
So, have a great day. See you later.
The virtue of a highly evolved being embraces all people and things and dispels the darkness which isolates them.
Hua Hu Ching-primary lesson.